Mar 26 2013

waiting with the patience
of no choice

for surely
something wonderful
is about to happen

the sun will set
and color will come home

the moon will rise
and stars will dance with midnight

a seed will burst through the soil
a leaf will unfold
a flower will open
an egg will divide

somewhere, a face cracks into a smile
somewhere else, tears are falling

and in all the miles between
anger and silence and joy and rhythm
form a quilt of square and triangle
rectangle and hexagon
inviting you to settle under
snuggle into
cover over

the rich dark soil underneath
wet and dank and teeming with
worms turning
turn turn

a darkness that feeds you
through the hollow cave of night

until morning comes and warms you
with promises promises
of another day

another chance
to sit there

watching

stand there

waiting

for surely
something wonderful

is about to happen

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Mar 20 2013

a whirlwind time
{scintilla day 8}

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Describe a memorable experience that took place
while preparing or eating food
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It was one of those crazy humid hot summer days in late July or early August. One of those days when the air just hangs on your skin like an extra set of clothing. By early evening, my family had gathered on the front porch because it was just too hot to be inside, and rain was on the horizon. My cousin, who was a year or two older than I, was staying at my grandmother’s house, just kitty-corner across the street. He had come over to spend the day hanging out with my brother, probably playing G.I. Joe or War or some such thing that the boys were always playing back then.

I’m sure that we were all drinking Pepsi, because that’s what we drank every night back then, one of us would walk around the block to the corner store and buy the eight pack of tall returnable glass bottles. And then most nights, to go along with it, there was either popcorn or some sort of candy. On this night, it was M&Ms, the biggest bag you could buy, divvied up between the five of us. (Me, my three siblings and my cousin). We held them in coffee cups, because you know, you always had to be certain that no one got more than their fair share.

I don’t think my dad was home that night, he worked trick shifts, so his scheduled rotated every week, one week 7-3, one week 3-11, one week 11-7. I can’t imagine how hard it must have been to adjust to that change every single week. No wonder he was always falling asleep at the kitchen table…but that’s another story.

I remember little else about the evening until it happened. The wind picked up, there was thunder and lightning, and we sat there on the porch enjoying the show and the cooling temperatures. And then the rain came, and the wind picked up even more, and my cousin started to get scared and wanting to go back home to my grandmother’s house. We told him to stay put, and I don’t really remember why he felt the overpowering need to leave just then, but I do remember that he grabbed his M&Ms and hopped on his bike to scoot across the street at almost the exact moment that what I can only describe as a mini tornado came zooming down the street. I’m sure there is a technical name for such a thing, a whirlwind or dust devil, it wasn’t very tall, maybe eight or ten feet, but it looked exactly like a tornado funnel. And even though it was small, it was powerful.

I had never seen anything like it before that night, and I have never seen anything like it since. We generally don’t have tornadoes here in western New York. It traveled straight down the center of the street, and you could see leaves and branches and debris swirling around in its path. My cousin zoomed across just in time to avoid it and the giant chestnut tree that came crashing down right behind him, blocking my grandmother’s car in her driveway, but somehow managing to avoid doing any real damage to it, or to my cousin.

He made it onto her porch and looked back over at us and we looked back over at him and I’m certain that we all had the same mouth-wide-open, holy crap! stare on our faces.

He was okay, and the tree, though a major inconvenience, hadn’t actually destroyed anything. But his M&Ms were gone, and so was the cup. We all searched for it the next day and never found so much as a shard.

Apparently, along with her temper, Mother Nature has a sweet tooth.

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this post is part of the scintilla project. see more here.

Mar 16 2013

holding pattern

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some weeks leave you

feeling spent,

and i am there

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it’s time

to buy more flowers

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Mar 9 2013

tiny bits of clarity

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in a life

a bit fuzzy

around the edges

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Mar 7 2013

50 things: movies i’ve loved

The movies in this photo are all the movies I actually own, so of course, they get top billing.

This may have been even harder than narrowing down 50 books. After the first twenty or so, I could have come up with a hundred. And I’m certain that I have left out so many, mainly independent films that I remember watching and loving, but not their name. I’ve seen all of these more than once, which, in the end, was the criteria for making the cut.

And apparently, Emma Thompson is by far my favorite actress, though if you ask me, I always say Juliette Binoche. I don’t think I have a favorite actor, really, though if I had to pick one, I would probably say Anthony Hopkins, but only in his non-violent roles.

A lot of these are movies that made me cry. Either in sadness, or in laughter, with Wit and Shadowlands earning Best Sob awards. Napolean Dynamite and A Christmas Story might be my favorite comedies.

  1. Remains of the Day
  2. Pride and Prejudice (the McFadden version)
  3. Wit
  4. Sense and Sensibility
  5. The Dead (The John Huston one, not the zombie one)
  6. Love Actually
  7. Napoleon Dynamite
  8. Shadowlands
  9. A Christmas Story (our Christmas Eve tradition)
  10. A Family Stone
  11. The Gods Must Be Crazy
  12. Amadeus
  13. Forrest Gump
  14. Chocolat
  15. Harry Potter Series
  16. Cold Mountain
  17. Cool Hand Luke
  18. Dead Poets Society
  19. Good Will Hunting
  20. E. T.
  21. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
  22. The Fisher King
  23. Grizzly Adams
  24. Home for the Holidays
  25. Field of Dreams
  26. Moonstruck
  27. The Prime of Miss Jean Brodie
  28. Spencer’s Mountain
  29. Rain Man
  30. Clerks
  31. Schindler’s List
  32. Like Water For Chocolate
  33. The Color Purple
  34. The Usual Suspects
  35. West Side Story
  36. The Hours
  37. Jeremiah Johnson
  38. The Unbearable Lightness of Being
  39. 50 First Dates
  40. Born Free
  41. Lord of the Rings Series
  42. Night on Earth
  43. Short Cuts
  44. Sleepless in Seatttle
  45. Before Sunrise
  46. Ghostbusters
  47. Lost in Translation
  48. Juno
  49. Little Miss Sunshine
  50. Sideways

So here they are, 50 movies I’ve loved. I’d kind of like to be watching any one of them just now.

Apocalypse Now is a movie I never got over, though I can’t call it a favorite. Suspiria, which I saw when I was 15, made me afraid to look out of windows at night for years, and turned me away from horror films forever. I love Woody Allen movies, but couldn’t choose a favorite. Henry V is a movie I absolutely loved, but I’ve only seen it once.

And Back to the Future was the last one I cut, though I have seen it dozens (perhaps hundreds) of times because it was my son’s favorite movie for a few years when he was a kid. But I’ll let him put that one on his list.

So okay, now it’s your turn. Would love to see your list if you feel so inclined… come back and leave me a link to your post if you do!


Mar 5 2013

patience

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tiny signs of life
in a landscape bent on breaking

beating

renewal growth

renewal

growth

quietly anticipating tomorrow
without calling for a promise

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Feb 23 2013

a saturday made for

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sitting with the silence

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Feb 9 2013

wonderland

It’s beautiful outside just now.

Winter wonderland beautiful.

Snow angel, snowman, sledding, hot cocoa weather.

It will be a day of pretending we live in a snow globe

with books and a fire and a quiet dinner

and no world beyond the edge of the driveway.

Or, perhaps, we won’t be pretending.

There is no place to be but here.

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Feb 7 2013

grey is my favorite color

Well, if I were February, it would be. Instead, I find color where I can, strewn about the house in bits of glass and fabric. Tulips from the grocery store. Eggs with a rainbow of peppers for breakfast.

Magic is the word I chose for 2013, reading is the word that’s chosen me. And everywhere I go, it’s quiet.

Our oldest cat is fading away and I watch her fighting. I think about life, and death, and everything in between. We make her a fire every night, and feed her all the tuna she wants, and give her lots of extra love.

The other night I broke out the afghan I’ve been working on for something like three years now… I only have a few rows to go, and it feels like it’s time to finally finish it.

Sometimes, endings come when you’re least expecting them. Sometimes, even though you know they are coming, it’s hard to look them in the eye.

The book I’m reading now is going to be hard to let go of. Fremont by Elizabeth Reeder. It’s filled with beginnings and magic and the trials of life. And, of course, endings.

And I’m in love with it.

This book. This grey sky, this grey cat, this life.

Every small, silent moment.


Feb 5 2013

conversation on the corner
of dogma and 4th

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see, i told you:
you can only get lost
when you’re following
someone else’s map

why don’t you ever listen

and

i heard she took everything,
even the cat

the rest gets drowned out
by a splashing bus and
the slap in the face
of exhausted exhaust

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when the light turns red
and the crowd surges forward
my tall boots refuse to carry on
and i stand there

anchored

by two tiny pieces of
strange stranger’s conversation

smiling because
i know exactly
what she meant

and a mewling kitten
is winding
infinity

around my warm and silent
ankles

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Linking up today with the fabulous dVerse poets for Open Link Night