let go. {reverb10 – day 5}
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What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?
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Mostly, I let go of fear.
Fear that I’m not good enough.
Fear that I am good enough.
Fear that this is all there is. That there might be something more.
That life will be pass me by and when I reach the end of the road
I will still be saying, someday.
Fear that when I look in the mirror I won’t recognize
the eyes staring back at me.
Or the wrinkles.
Fear that I can’t handle loss, fear of what I might find.
Fear that I am who I am.
And that everyone else is who they are.
Fear that so much of the time, it is too late.
I opened my hand and my heart
and let all the fear fly out,
like starlings.
They’re all up in the sky now, those fears.
Swooping and soaring
in a symphony
of not afraid.
December 5th, 2010 at 10:12 am
Sigh – this. is. beautiful. times. ten!
Mrs. Mediocrity has to be a pseudonym – I’m so sure your real name is Mrs. Mahvelous!!
December 5th, 2010 at 10:13 am
FABULOUS! I am in awe of your courage!
December 5th, 2010 at 10:54 am
I am going to keep that image of “a symphony of not afraid” close to me, so I can reach for it before I go to sleep. You are amazing right now, always have been.
December 5th, 2010 at 11:02 am
good god, but this is wonderful. i can’t pick a favorite line, they are all so perfect, but i will say that “fear that i am who i am” is pretty much touching my heart right now. xoxo
December 5th, 2010 at 12:40 pm
GASP
December 5th, 2010 at 12:43 pm
I’ve been waiting for your post all day. Simply wonderful.
December 5th, 2010 at 12:51 pm
Beautiful.
December 5th, 2010 at 2:31 pm
Your courage is inspiring!!!
December 5th, 2010 at 4:29 pm
I wish I could let go of the fear . . . I have days where it disappears but it soon returns.
December 5th, 2010 at 6:42 pm
What a beautifully written post. I want my fear to soar like a flock of starlings.
I let go of an old friend. I may still see her from time to time, but I needed to let her go.
December 5th, 2010 at 7:47 pm
‘fear that so much of the time it is too late’
oh, god. yes.
i send my own starling of this up to meet yours.
fly. be free.
xxoo
December 5th, 2010 at 9:40 pm
Stunning. I am right there with you. Thanks for the inspiration.
_Mc
December 5th, 2010 at 10:07 pm
“I opened my hand and my heart
and let all the fear fly out,
like starlings.
They’re all up in the sky now, those fears.
Swooping and soaring
in a symphony
of not afraid.”
Please excuse the lack of formatting – I am crying too hard.
December 5th, 2010 at 10:14 pm
Absolutely beautifully written. How very inspiring!
December 5th, 2010 at 10:38 pm
That was an inspiring read. Remember that real courage is doing what needs to be done despite being afraid.
December 5th, 2010 at 11:25 pm
Beautifully written – challenging and touching. You are wonderful in your mediocrity! 🙂
December 6th, 2010 at 12:17 am
Why, oh why, do you not live in Los Angeles so I can kidnap you for long chats over steaming cups of tea, or some other libation of your choice?
This poem took my breath away, and then gave it back to me in a rush of emotion. Glorious and gut-wrenching and far too familiar for my comfort.
December 6th, 2010 at 8:40 am
this is as perfect as it gets…..it really should be life size….a poster perhaps…hanging in all of our studios 🙂
December 6th, 2010 at 1:37 pm
Such – is the power – and the grace – of – the Hawk …
December 6th, 2010 at 3:47 pm
“fear that I am good enough…”
I have struggled with this fear all of my life. It’s really nice to see it articulated in someone else.
Beautifully expressed, as always.
December 6th, 2010 at 4:35 pm
Fear is my oldest companion; I grasp and hold her tight. My hands ache from the clutching. Your words give me the strength to finally open my hands, for I would love to watch her fly.
December 6th, 2010 at 10:25 pm
I’ve just found your beautiful blog. So happy I stumbled upon it as I am so moved by your writing. Thank you for sharing.
December 7th, 2010 at 2:59 pm
Oh… *sigh* I wish I could do the same. As one who is afraid of many things much of the time, I am very glad for you.
December 9th, 2010 at 3:08 am
A gorgeous and inspiring and brave piece of writing. And a perfect example of why I am loving #reverb10!
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