hot flashes
I couldn’t sleep for weeks
and then I remembered that I needed to write.
Ariel was always a dream, but a wakeful one,
whispering pictures and posturing portent.
I don’t need to sing, my body
is always happy to do that for me.
There’s a fire burning inside me (literally)
at the same time there’s a fire
burning down the world.
I lay awake at night and rage at everything,
but in a peaceful way.
I eat grace for breakfast and anomaly for lunch.
Everything has too many calories.
Something else I have to burn.
I can only sleep when my feet are cool
and mine are scorching these sheets
like my mother’s old iron.
This room is never dark enough,
and I am never really here.
It doesn’t matter.
Matter is energy and I am combustible.
I float like a gas just south of the ceiling.
No one ever notices, which is funny.
Except when I get stuck in cobwebs.
I’ve lived in this house longer than I haven’t.
It’s small and tiny and we are always tripping over each other.
I trip over everything anyway.
It’s winter and I miss the sky.
The snow geese are down at the swamp screaming injustice.
On New Year’s Eve the fireworks gave them fits
and I smiled as I stood
alone in the center of road
as white sparks drifted down
like lost feathers.
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January 11th, 2020 at 2:13 pm
I was having withdrawals after your 9/11 post and then there was hope with the 12/31 posting and now I’m all happy again with your 1-9 post! I love your writing and this image is just fabulous!! Happy New Year and I so hope you’ll share more via your “blog.” Everything just seems to get lost on Facebook. Thank you!
January 13th, 2020 at 11:03 am
You always make me smile, then cry, then smile, and love life again.
January 17th, 2020 at 4:11 pm
This resonates with me right now.