the year of living fiftyishly
It seemed like a big year (it was definitely a big number). It seemed like something momentous should happen, something grand accomplished, some milestone achieved that would mark time’s passing in a less than usual way.
And it was, and it wasn’t. It did, and it didn’t.
In truth, it was another year very much like all the years before it, and for that, I am grateful. I didn’t achieve the goals I set for myself, although I did make progress towards them. And I am okay with that. Because the truth is, life happens. The truth is that today is one more day on my life calendar, and the truth is, this is the day that matters most. The one I’m in, right now.
I’m waiting for the results of more medical tests today, and hoping for good news.
I’m looking out the window of my studio just now and it’s a gorgeous winter wonderland, made even better by the fact that I don’t have to drive anywhere.
My son is already home for the holiday, and we had a nice evening together last night, just chatting and being together.
I am re-reading The Book Thief, because something told me it was just the right time to do so.
I’m looking at my snow-covered life and making snow angels in my mind. I’m rolling around in the ordinary magic that makes up this very ordinary day in a very ordinary year in a very ordinary life.
And trust me, I mean that in all the best possible of ways.
I’m reveling in the ordinary. This moment right now with the house so quiet and snow still falling and a cup of tea in my hands to warm them.
I’m going to make oatmeal for breakfast.
And savor the simple truth of this moment.
I’m going to say goodbye to 50 and hello to 51. I always have liked odd numbers best.
I’m going to give this new year a big hug and ask it to join me.
I have a feeling we’re going to be great friends.
November 27th, 2013 at 8:37 am
A beautiful tribute to the year past…and a welcome to the year coming. Wishing you a happy one…and all good things!!!
November 27th, 2013 at 9:16 am
I love this – the quiet beauty of 51 and 51 her’s to many more such peaceful moments.
November 27th, 2013 at 9:16 am
I meant, of course, 50 and 51!
November 27th, 2013 at 9:57 am
Great sentiments. I hope all your tests are good. I am struggling with a medical scare too. I hope it will also be okay. Hugs.
November 27th, 2013 at 10:12 am
A beautiful birthday to you
with big hope
that this next jaunt around the sun
is your sweetest so far:)
-Jennifer
November 27th, 2013 at 3:22 pm
Wonderfully expressed. Best wishes for 51 and I really hope your tests come back with good news.
November 27th, 2013 at 4:16 pm
Even though you didn’t say it explicitly, it must be your birthday. Many many happy wishes to you!
Hope the medical news is good. xoxo
November 27th, 2013 at 6:47 pm
hey just in time for the book thief movie as well…and i measure progress more than achievement anyway you know…smiles…hope you have a great holiday with your family…smiles.
November 28th, 2013 at 1:03 am
Happy birthday to you– I hope your medical reports are excellent and worry-free. So nice you can spend time with your son.
Enjoy,
xo jj
November 28th, 2013 at 11:22 pm
I think that’s the magic of turning 50…you realize the magic of the ordinary and savor every bit of it because you realize the hourglass is dripping faster somehow and you’ve taken all of those other grains of sand for granted somehow. My health went kind of crazy when I turned 50, but at 54 it’s kind of settled down again. Hoping for good tests for you! Happy Thanksgiving and happy birthday!!