in which i mourn a cup
Yesterday, my husband broke my all-time favorite teacup. It was an accident, and I forgave him thirty seconds later (yes, it took thirty seconds). And I know what you’re thinking: it was just a cup.
But it wasn’t. It was the perfect cup. The perfect sky blue color, the perfect cup-in-palm shape, the perfect weight, the perfect size for morning tea. I’ve seen a lot of life reflected in this cup. It’s the first thing I talk to every morning. No one else even wants to talk to me before we’ve shared at least one cup of tea. And by we, I mean me and my cup.
I found it one day at a flea market, years and years and years ago. It jumped right into my hand, knowing it would be going home with me. It only cost a few dollars, and I already had a beige version of the same cup at home, my then-favorite that had developed a hairline crack after many years of daily use. I still have that cup in the back of the cupboard, even though it’s cracked. It’s hard to part with old friends.
I also have a white version of the same cup, which is what I’m drinking out of this morning. And it’s almost as good as the blue one, but if I am honest, I must admit, I’ve always played favorites and loved the blue one just a little bit more. I know it’s wrong. But I couldn’t help it.
Truth is, I have a cupboard full of tea cups. And favorites I use for every different kind of tea. But my favorite tea is morning tea, most especially the very first cup, and my sky blue cup has been through a lot of mornings with me. Outside in the garden sipping a reflection of the sky, inside snuggled up with a book and blanket, work days that I would never have been able to face without my friend in hand.
Don’t get me wrong, in the grand scheme of things, I know this is nothing. That it is, in truth, just a cup. There are ten million things in life more important than this.
But just for this one short minute, in answer to this prompt, I’m allowing myself to mourn my cup.
Call me crazy if you want, I don’t mind.
But whisper, okay? Because I’ll be having a moment of silence.
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Reverb 12/Cultivate 2012:
What matters most to you right now?
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December 10th, 2012 at 8:35 am
okay. totally.
December 10th, 2012 at 8:42 am
Even in the last days of the year of discarding, it is difficult to let go of the perfect blue.
December 10th, 2012 at 8:58 am
Condolences…I so get it!
December 10th, 2012 at 9:01 am
i understand. xoxo
December 10th, 2012 at 10:36 am
I understand completely. RIP, little blue cup. You shall be missed.
December 10th, 2012 at 10:38 am
I totally understand. If I lost my favorite, every morning white coffee cup, I’d be at loose ends.
December 10th, 2012 at 11:24 am
not at all…these little things can be big things…and we should have the space to mourn the little things, but also forgive as well…smiles…my fav is shaped like a barrel and i got it for a quarter at a yard sale….but i had a fav shirt that got burned up once…but i wont go into that…smiles.
December 10th, 2012 at 2:32 pm
i get it. and you have my condolences, too.
others perhaps, however, not US, would break into a big smile and shake their heads. a cup? YES, a cup!
in fondest. tilda
December 10th, 2012 at 7:29 pm
Oh Kelly, I’m so sorry about your cup. You know all about mine, so I sure can understand how you feel.:(
December 10th, 2012 at 8:19 pm
YOU are not crazy at all. i have my favorite tea cups, too…in fact the last one i fell in love with, well i bought two of them, because i loved it that much… and just in case my hubby would ever happen to break it, well, i wouldn’t have to kill him 🙂
xo
December 10th, 2012 at 11:03 pm
I have a favorite mug that I like to have my morning cuppa in too. If it’s not in that mug its not quite the same . . . I get it.
December 10th, 2012 at 11:27 pm
Oh the perfect cup– I know exactly what you mean. Sorry yours is gone 🙁 I have a favorite little platter that’s blue. It’s starting to crack and I know pretty soon I’ll be in the same boat as you and your cup.
xo jj
December 11th, 2012 at 9:04 am
I know this feeling. Each cup of mine has its own personality and mood. They each have their own time for use. I’m very territorial about my cups/mugs. Breaking one is like losing an old friend indeed. I’m very sorry for the loss of your cup, Kelly.
December 11th, 2012 at 11:11 am
I totally understand!!! I always bond with my cars. They take on personalities of their own to me, and when I have to sell one, I always cry.
Glad to know I’m not the only one. 😉
December 11th, 2012 at 3:47 pm
I don’t think you’re crazy at all. We get attached to things–and not because we’re shallow and materialistic, but because we love the memories that come with those things. I don’t have a favorite cup, but last year when I was packing up a bunch of my old clothes to make room for some of Ollie’s stuff, I stood in the closet and cried and cried as I folded up *this* sweater and *that* dress, remembering who I was when I wore those things, the places I went with them, the people I knew.
December 11th, 2012 at 5:31 pm
This resonates with me. I love it. I had a great cup from my son’s school and I treasured it. When it broke I felt so sad. 🙁