the end is always
the beginning
The morning is still, so still I can hear grasshoppers buzz and crickets walk. Okay, of course I can’t really hear them walk, but you know what I mean.
Dew has covered everything during the night, there is no place to sit in my garden that isn’t wet, and so I stand, watching a pink sky fade into the grey of rain’s promise. A promise that has been made again and again this year, and broken just as many times.
And still, my garden grows, flowers being stubborn even in the worst of times. They have a job to do and they will do it, as long as there is an inch of life left in them. I have to say, I admire their spirit.
On days like this, I want to be the sky that embraces them, the soil that feeds them, the light that brings them hope.
Actually, on days like these, I want to be one of them, reaching, stretching, working to make the world a better place. Fulfilling a purpose, cycling through the inevitable cycle, breathing and moving, waiting and hoping. Drooping in the heat of the sun, and finding new strength during warm dark nights.
And then facing sunrise with an upturned face and blind optimism.
This past week, in my whirlwind of discarding, I found a book that I had started writing years ago. As in, 20-some years ago. I had completely forgotten about it. I’m not sure why or how I had so easily let its existence fall from my mind. It seems like you should remember something like that.
I had titled it Girl with No Flowers.
I haven’t had time yet to read through it, but I will. From an entirely new perspective of who I am and what I am doing here.
Because these days, I most definitely have flowers.
And flowers always grow.
August 9th, 2012 at 8:54 am
along with you, i must have flowers. especially now. the color and the growth, despite the odds, are sustaining me. xoxo
August 9th, 2012 at 9:04 am
the cycle of life is rather predictable….thanks for saying it beautifully…
August 9th, 2012 at 9:23 am
Oh I so love this post! And I can’t wait to hear more about this new found book and the feelings it will unfold from bud to flower!
August 9th, 2012 at 12:52 pm
ah, flowers. what is it about flowers? they, calm the soul.
August 10th, 2012 at 9:33 am
Beautiful post , flowers are so sturdy so persistent it’s amazing where they will grow and how they give so much joy…
August 10th, 2012 at 12:33 pm
i left a pot of night blooming cereus on my mother’s back porch & forgot about it. through last year’s drought, the winter, and this year so far. i found it the other day, knocked over by storms & wind, up under some bushes. with new sprouts of leaves replacing the dead ones.
i want to be like that. exactly as you said. exactly. upturned face and blind optimism.
August 12th, 2012 at 11:05 am
At times, I’m blindly optimistic by default. Mostly, it’s a good thing. I wait to hear about this book and what you think of it in the present day.