bits and pieces
I decided, the other day, that 2012 will be the year of discarding.
Letting go, relinquishing, dropping, hurling, setting free, releasing.
Words and tchotchkes, things and thoughts, pounds and insecurities. Worries and doubts, stuff and clutter, possibilities and promises. There is so much that I don’t need.
I want to sit here in this room surrounded by nothing, I want the quiet to seep into my skin, I want to be enveloped in space.
I need more room. Elbow room, breathing room, leg room, room to grow, a room with a view, living room, my own room.
My life is cluttered with things I don’t need, things I must have, things that replace other things. I want less, more or less. I want fewer things and more words. Less stuff and more substance. I want to hold nothing in my hand and watch it turn into something.
I want to give away everything I have and expect nothing in return. I want to build a tower of hope and climb all the way to the top. I want to let my hair down and run laughing through the forest. I want to live off the land and inhale the morning. I want to sing the sun to bed at night and whisper rhymes to the stars. I want to wrap my arms around the ocean.
I want nothing. All of it.
I want to find an empty place to curl into, a bowl, a pail, a vessel, something to float away in. I want to feel the air rushing at my face as I soar through clouds of forgiveness. I want to lie on my back in a meadow alone and let butterflies land on my nose.
I want to be still.
I want to be.
Still.
January 5th, 2012 at 9:31 am
you should have it all. the nothing, that is. the empty bowl is the one that can hold starlight.
xoxo to butterflies landing on your nose!
January 5th, 2012 at 9:31 am
Oh yes, I want all of nothing too. I am ready right now. This is my new favorite piece of prose; you know I say that with every piece you write.
January 5th, 2012 at 10:07 am
As Michael says this is a new favorite of mine. Love your words and the O so beautiful images that comes with them.
January 5th, 2012 at 10:10 am
“You have your wonderful memories,” people said later, as if memories were solace. Memories are not. Memories are by definition of times past, things gone…..Memories are what you no longer want to remember.”
Joan Didion, “Blue Nights.” Sometimes, this is true for Joan…not all of the time…sometimes, this is very true for me…not all of the time. like your piece, the yin and yang, nothing or all, we move in and out…beautifully done, kelly.
January 5th, 2012 at 10:21 am
..elbow room, breathing room. nothing. all of it.
it sounds so simple. it takes courage. i want it. i want the simple in my life. i want to sit with my coffee in the open space, not cluttered with things or thoughts and just look out. the sound of silence calms the soul.
in fond regard, Tilda
January 5th, 2012 at 10:31 am
ME TOO !!
January 5th, 2012 at 10:56 am
makes me think of empty bowls. I love empty bowls. I love you.
January 5th, 2012 at 11:21 am
Interesting. I have, for my whole life, been a fairly “aquisitive” gal, of the things I love. And just last year that started dissolving off of me. Ready to pack things away w/o resentment, give things away.
Space.
It might be seeping into us from the stars…
January 5th, 2012 at 11:39 am
Oooohh Can I join you too?
January 5th, 2012 at 1:55 pm
Just last night I was thinking that this weekend I should purge .. so much crap … AND that photo? The buds look like fabric .. I love its texture
January 5th, 2012 at 3:52 pm
Even the things you want are poetic. Your images, your words — so beautiful here.
January 6th, 2012 at 9:20 am
A new favorite blog, well, perhaps tied with Blue Muse. So pleased to have discovered you via Mia Starr. This post sums up what I’ve been mulling over during this first week of the new year. I’d been hanging my new mission on Pico Iyer. (Post coming soon…) Now you share the blame! 😉
January 6th, 2012 at 8:47 pm
i will be in the empty field, just up the road from yours, taking in the fullness of nothing and reporting on the lightness of butterfly wings.
nothing is everything, baby. xo
January 7th, 2012 at 12:22 am
“I want nothing. All of it.” Boy, can I related to that!
Wishing it all to you in 2012!
xo jj
January 8th, 2012 at 11:07 am
How wonderfully expressed. This will be my thought for the day.
January 8th, 2012 at 5:45 pm
I took such a deep breath after reading this.
January 24th, 2012 at 3:14 am
Oh, I want to become those words!