ah, forgiveness
{reverb11 – day 7}

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Who have you forgiven this year and what was
the journey like that brought you to forgive them?

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Forgiveness is such a tough one. For most of my life, I was really bad at it. I was one of those people, a grudge-holder. A thorn-in-my-side kind of person. It’s true.

In the last few years, I have shifted away from that. I think it started when I was ill, and the old cliche that life is too short started whispering itself in my ear. Tapping me on the shoulder. Tripping me when it thought I wasn’t looking.

But it’s true, you know. Life is too short.

And I have too many things I want to do to waste time holding grudges. To take up space in my heart and my soul with hatred and anger. To fill my days with looking back when all I need is right now.

More cliches, I know. Still, these are the realizations I came to. I’m not claiming to be good at forgiving just because I have reached this point. Forgiving is still a hard thing to do. Especially for the big hurts. But I am better at it now, because I’m willing to forgive. I don’t stand in the black or the white, I keep my feet in the grey. Well, at least I try.

So the answer to the question, who did I forgive this year?

Everyone. Including myself.

I let things roll off my back and on down the hill. I allowed myself to be less than perfect. I stopped clinging to the hope that I could do it all and chose the things I really wanted to do.

And I stopped holding grudges. Well, okay, I stopped holding them for such a long time, there may have been a moment or two that still managed to take hold of my senses. I’m only human, after all. But I forgave myself for that, too.

And my life is better because of it. The older I get, the more I learn to embrace humanity. Because we really are all in this together. There’s a whole fabulous spectrum between dark and light. I want to keep moving forward, and I am drawn to all that color, that green and that violet, that blue.

And besides, everything you’ve ever heard about forgiveness…

is true.

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